Sick at Heart

18-year-old Helena Muffly wrote exactly 100 years ago today: 

Monday, July 14, 1913:  Didn’t feel very good today and did feel very miserable. I’m not really sick, but sick at heart over something else.

Recent photo of the Muffly farm.

Her middle-aged granddaughter’s comments 100 years later:

Why was Grandma sick at heart?  What could have possibly happened?

Previous entries provided no clue that Grandma might be stressing over something—the preceding day she just wrote about the rainy weather and going to Sunday School. . . and two days before this entry she wrote about helping with the wheat harvest.

36 thoughts on “Sick at Heart

  1. Hmmmm… Grandma certainly has an odd way of writing in her diary….you normally think of someone “telling all their secrets” in a diary – but not Grandma. Hopefully she’ll elaborate more in a future post…

    1. Cryptic entries like this one make me wonder if Grandma worried that her mother or sister might occasionally sneak a peak at the diary contents.

    1. I had similar thoughts. It makes me wonder if she thought that her mother or sister might occasionally be secretly reading the diary.

    1. Interesting thought. . I wonder if Grandma would have been more or less likely to put these types of details into the diary if she could have somehow known that we’d be reading it a hundred years later.

  2. I also think she is disappointed in love, maybe she likes someone and the feelings are not returned.

  3. Oh, poor thing! It’s interesting that she doesn’t provide any details about her heartache. I hope this sad spell didn’t last long for her.

    1. You may be right. Since you’re about the same age she was when she wrote the diary entry, you probably have a good sense of how she felt. It’s interesting how some things like transportation and technology have really changed over the last hundred years, but how people feel at various stages of their lives really doesn’t change over time.

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